傻

每一次痴痴地在那里等待

等待你的身影出现

等待你上线

就只是在那里看着你在线上

不敢去找你聊天。
即使是曾终于鼓起勇气地主动找你，

聊过了一会儿，

能算是满足了吧。
之后，

就每一次都傻傻地看着你在线上，

再次的鼓不起勇气去找你聊天，

只能忍着忍着不去找你聊天，

直至你下线，

无论是等到一，两三点

只要是你下线为止，

你去睡了，

我才甘愿去睡。

或许这是很笨，很傻的事，

可是那是值得的吧...

不知是从何时就有了这习惯，

每一晚仍然这样的陪着你在线上...

不知道你会否发现..

真的好希望你能察觉到...

其实我真的好希望，好希望

每一次听到的信息声响，

那人会是你..

只从那一次之后，

我每一次都再期待着，

但或许那是第一次，

更是最后一次吧...

每一次的等待，

都或许有些失望...

但是，我不敢期望那么多了...

不想每一次的期望，

换回来的都是失望，

每一次的微笑，

换回来的都是眼泪...

现在，

只要你每晚都在线上，

我都会一直等到你下线....

那样，我就满足了啦...

 

少给我希望，希望就不是绝望

盼望着

每一次更新的status，写得多么的深奥或刻意的时候，
其实只是想得到你的注意或回应.....
可是得到的总是失望....
每一次看见你在线时，
真的好想好想找你聊聊，就算是一句简单的"嗨”..
但，勇气却总是鼓不起来...
每一次都择放弃，就只是眼睁睁地，傻傻地看着你在那儿直到你下线..
那种感觉真的很难受...
有时候会宁可你不在线上吧...
不敢，因为怕总有一天，
被你发现了，让你知道了，
连现在朋友的关系也没了...
那我宁可你一辈子都不知道，
不告诉你，
只为了保持现在还是朋友的关系，
至少现在我们好有见面，出去，推特....
我不想连这一点点的联络都没了...
会后悔一辈子...

                    矛盾的心情，不断的起伏着

不晓得自己到底想要怎样

就像没有了方向感...

What If

Day after day
Time pass away
And I just can't get you out my mind
Nobody knows
I hide it inside
I keep on searching
But I can't find
The courage to show
I never felt so much love before
And once again
I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out
But if I let you go
I will never know
what's my life would be
will I ever see
You smiling back at me
How will I know
If I let you go
Night after night
I hear myself say
Why can;t this feeling just fade away
There's no one like you
Can to my heart
It's just a shame we worlds apart
I'm too shy to ask
I'm too proud to lose
But sooner or later
I've got to choose
And once again
I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out

What if I let you go? 

I will never know what after this ....

English Paper Down

Finally, General English paper ended! It's not that hard that I imagined and compared to the last semester's Academic English. Keep freezing in the grand hall when doing the paper even I had wore a long purple stripes sleeves, but it can't stand for the cold in the hall. Almost thousands of students exam in a grand hall. Some taking Electronics I, GE and Discrete Structures & Probability(don't know what kind of subject is that). Quite nervous when doing the paper and it was really cold. Someone next to me was keep sneezing through out the exam.Mentioned: Is a boy.  *Funny*  Time past in a such a quiet way that you don't realised it at all. 10.20am! Left half an hour plus to finish my paper.But I'm still at Section B,question 2 out of 3 Sections. Whatever, just left it like that and continue the last essay session. 10.45am, finished unexpectedly.
I thought I will run out of time to finish this paper. Thanks God! Everything went well and ended well. Now, 4 down, 1 more to go. All the best!

Autumn coming soon.. Love this season! 

Lovely Autumn ♥

2nd Semester's Final

Here you'd came, silently.This is what everyone hope not to come. But, we have to face through it. During this period, the second semester's final exam. Well, having 5 subjects for final: Marco, Financial Account, General English, Group Dynamics and Com Apps. *facepalm*  Before exam, I just keep reblog, tweet tweet tweet and fun fun fun. When the exam is around the corner, just get to ready for it. Have to rush for 5 subjects within 2 months! The most killing subject is Com Applications, which fall on 22Sept! Before this subject, I kept memorize and memorize for 7chapters with a 400++pages thick text book! Impossible to finish it within 2days even roughly go through the slides. This not only happened to me, the same thing goes to my whole classmates. Stress! Seriously, I have never ever stress like that before! Before the exam night, we thought we were going to mad for this. We keep laughing non-stop for unreasonable,laugh out loud and talk some nonsense whole night instead of memorize the Com Apps slides! *Crazy Girls*
Finally, the nightmare ended! Computer Apps had over. *Cheer*  In spite of this, quite worry about the result (once I failed, gonna say hello again on next semester) since the objective session is quite hard for us as compared to the previous year. Anyway, I don't care about it now. What to do for now is look forward and get ready for the last 2 subjects! GD and English! All the best for me and you!

A mountain of notes + books for finals

Com Apps!

The Super Duper Crazy Text Book! *full of words in every single page*

Hope everything ends well. God Bless!

Times

Realized that, time can make a relationship get closer and more better..
Meanwhile, it can worsen a relationship..
Never talk to each other, never meet up and even the name is not in the contact list, anymore...
Someday, even we meet up accidentally at a deserted street, I'm just a stranger to you..
Pass by without saying hello.. We are just a stranger..

I act like I don't care, but 

deep inside, it hurts.

"Don't cry for him, he not deserves it"

Deserted Area

21.9.2012 Friday 

How long did i never manage this blog?

Insects, mosquitos, flies and viruses are all around here..

Haha

Uni life is fun but it's TIRED because of those assignments.

That's why I have no time to manage this blog but I did the Tumblr.

Whenever I try to type something over here, but i stuck and don't know what to write.

Maybe I have used to it that let everything keep deeply in my heart.

Keeping...Keeping..Keeping..Keeping...............

How long have I kept for those things?
I don't know...

I didn't know where to express out the sadness, madness and those kind of unknown weird feelings...
Twitter will be no longer for me to express anything out.
Honestly, 
I have a lots, a lots and lots of things to share, to tell you through here...

Stay tuned ...